FIFTH
LETTER TO LLOYD GOODWIN
"Son of man, I have made you a watchman for the house
of Israel; so hear the word I speak and give them warning from me. [8] When I
say to the wicked, O wicked man, you will surely die,' and you do not speak out
to dissuade him from his ways, that wicked man will die for his sin, and I will
hold you accountable for his blood. [9] But if you do warn the wicked man to
turn from his ways and he does not do so, he will die for his sin, but you will
have saved yourself."
(I wrote this
letter from Oklahoma after I had sent the fourth letter to him but before I had
received his letter that he sent to me on the 19th of July. I was at
my parent's home at the time. Lloyd Goodwin had always told me that I needed to
lose that Youngblood spirit. I use to pray for the Lord to show me what
that meant. I now know that he didn't want anyone to have a mind of their
own and I guess the Youngblood family is known for that. He tried to
destroy the connection in families so that he could be the only family we had.
He told me one time that I didn't owe my mother anything. But my Mother
was there for me when I needed her.)
LETTER FIVE
July 20, 1991
Dear Brother Goodwin:
Greetings,
in the name of our Lord.
I know that you probably would rather not get another letter from me. If I were
in your shoes, I'd probably feel the same way.
Brother Goodwin, at one time,
I defended you, no matter what. I felt that you were the greatest man of God
that ever lived, the greatest teacher. I did, with all sincerity of heart. In
my wildest imagination, I could never have dreamed that I would be doing what
I'm doing now. It's beyond me. God is doing it through me. He has always warned
his people before he brought his judgment. In some cases, they repented and
turned. In many, they went on in their wicked ways and were destroyed!
I know that all my life, I've
prayed, "Jesus use me. Lord, I want to be a vessel of gold in the house of
the Lord." I've always had a heart after God, since I received the Holy
Spirit at 11 years of age. At 12 years, I was debating with ministers and they
didn't know what to do with the scriptures that I showed them. When my friends
were going to ball games, etc. at school, I went to church. I would not be a
cheerleader because it would interfere with church.
I'm not saying that I was
perfect (because I certainly wasn't) but I never really felt insecure
because I felt that I carried the Lord in my heart. I had a priceless treasure.
We were always poor in material things but our family was rich in the important
things. We knew that Mom and Dad loved each other and us! We were taught about
love in the real sense. My Dad may have been a country boy but I
guarantee you, he was a man after God's own heart. I feel very privileged that
God allowed me to be born into this Youngblood family.
You know, Brother Goodwin,
we've all made mistakes. I've made mistakes that I was very ashamed and sorry
for but I remember a message one time that you put in the church, titled, Hope
Maketh Not Ashamed. I never forgot that. The
mistakes are not really to be ashamed of, if you learn from them and it
turns you around. It's like a child touching a hot stove. It hurts! You might
accidently touch it the second or third time but surely not intentionally! I
suppose, if you seared your hand to a certain point, it would kill the nerve
endings and you wouldn't feel it any more. I don't really know. I don't wish to
try it.
Brother Goodwin, I really
want to do things right and God's way. If you are my brother, I've tried going
to you so we could make things right. Up to this point, you have not heard me
but you keep increasing in untruths. "Oh what a dreadful web we weave when
first we practice to deceive!" Satan was Eve's deceiver when he said,
"ye shall not surely die!" She made a covenant with Satan, but she did
die, didn't she? You have encouraged others to lie and deceive. There is
absolutely no justification for that! Rahab saved lives, you are only covering up your own skin! God said,
"if you say you are without sin, the truth is not
in you for we have all sinned and come short of the glory of God."
James 5:16 - He said we should
confess our faults one to another and pray for each other, that we might be
healed. 19 & 20
- Brethern, if any of you do err from the truth and one convert him,
let him know that he who converts the sinner from the error of his way shall
save a soul from death and shall hide a multitude of sins.
II Timothy 2:25 In
meekness instructing those that oppose themselves, if God peradventure will
give them repentance to the acknowledging of the truth.
26 and
that they may recover themselves out of the snare of the devil, who are taken captive by him at his, will.
Galatians 6:1 Brethren, if a man be overtaken in a fault, ye which are
spiritual, restore such as one in the spirit of meekness, considering thyself,
lest thou also be tempted. (7) Be not deceived, God is not mocked, for
whatever a man sows, he reaps. (8) For he that sows to the flesh shall
of the flesh reap corruption; but he that sows to the Spirit shall of the
Spirit reap life everlasting.
Brother Goodwin, I know that
you already know all these scriptures. Most of them, I've heard you preach about
but God is really trying to warn you. He loves you.
I was reading in Ezekiel this
morning and this scripture really stood out to me and I felt I must relay it to
you.
Ezekiel 33:2B - When I bring the
sword upon a land, and the people set up a man as a watchman: If he sees the
sword and blows the trumpet and warns the people. Then whoever hears the
trumpet and takes not warning when the sword comes and takes him away, his
blood shall be upon his own head.
And this also goes the other way around. The blood
can be on the watchman's head if he fails to sound a warning.
He went on to say in verse 11 - I have no pleasure in the death of the wicked but that he turn from his way and live. (12) The righteousness of
the righteous shall not deliver him in the day of his transgressions; the
wicked shall not fall in the day that he turns from his wickedness, neither
shall the righteous live in the day that he sins. (13) If the righteous
commit iniquity, all his righteousness shall not be remembered, but he shall
die for his iniquity. (14 -15) and "if the wicked restore the
pledge, give again that which he has robbed
(peoples reputations,
money received under false pretenses, etc.) Walk in the statues of life, without committing iniquity,
he shall surely live!"
Brother Goodwin, I know that
love covers a multitude of sins. I know that you have suffered reproach but in
all honesty, it's been for your own sins! When Nathan approached David for his
sin with Bathsheba, he readily admitted it and repented for it but when you
were confronted, you denied it and used lies and deceit to murder other's
reputations!
You must repent! Sharon's
name needs to be publicly exonerated, to all the ministers that you lied to, to
protect your own reputation and to all the people. You need to put it on tape
and I believe you should repent to her personally. Also to anyone else, even to
(-----) for accusing him of being a male prostitute! I never did believe that.
The reason I didn't believe that is because I knew the lies you had told about
me. It was really hard for me to believe anything you or anyone else in the
church said, because I knew that you had taught the people to lie!
"Righteous Deception." You need to repent to (-----). You have made
her a mindless puppet. Why else would she stand up in band practice and tell
them that "there's some woman going around telling people that I cussed
her out, when the fact of the matter is that "I don't even know a cuss
word" and she's the one who cussed me out!"
Brother Goodwin, you taught
her to lie! Years ago (over ten) when Glenn and I had our problems after Robert
and I had our very short-lived affair. After we had found out that (-----) was (supposedly)
pregnant with Lee Ray's baby and that the two of you had been fighting over her
and all the other garbage (these are not accusations, but facts I heard
out of people's own mouths.) We felt like if it was OK for our leaders to do
it, then it must be OK for us. But we could not do it even though we tried.
Anyway, (-----) came to the
back to pray for me and I said to (-----) “You've never given a
"damn" about me; why are you trying now?" Now Brother Goodwin, I
heard you say that damn means - half a penny or two cents or something
like that, also I've heard you use words a lot worse than damn over the pulpit!
But then you get up, when I'm not even there to defend myself and tell the
people that I cussed (-----) out like a sailor! Then she mimics
(puppets) the same thing to the band! (I have eye and ear witnesses.) How can
anyone believe or trust anyone there? What about (-----) when she became
pregnant by (-----) and you told her to get an abortion? Did you not want to
mar the Goodwin name? (As well as others.) What about
your own nephew's wife and those who call you brother and pastor and stand with
you faithfully? What about their wives and daughters?
You must repent or you will
reap all that you've sown.
Again I say, “You must repent
and make restitution NOW.”
Sincerely in Christ,
Sister Wanda Mason
